As a young girl I didn’t know why I was alive. I sought meaning, purpose and a sense of belonging. Then I sought Truth with a capital ‘T’. Jesus became alive to me and I immersed myself in a relationship with him – totally smitten. I got to know him better and better through the ups and downs of life. Now in this less active season of life my yearnings for spiritual depth have opened. I want more of God. I want to go deeper into the reality that holds the universe together. Hanging on to Jesus’ hand I ask him to take me with him a bit deeper into the heart of God.
I see more clearly that life is about our experience of God. We get distracted by achievement, accumulation, accomplishment. We get distracted by desires to be seen, known, to belong, desires for fame, wealth, power, affection, security and control. We get distracted by fears, worries, wounds and grudges. In my meditation practice I learn to recognize distractions and return to God. That is one of the strengths of a mediation practice, constantly seeing distractions and consciously choosing to release them and return to rest within God.
Distractions are all around externally and internally, but they’re not the main event. God is the main event. Going deeper into the Spiritual Heart of the universe is the main event. That is why we’re here on earth. First is our relationship with God, our experience of Love, Joy, Peace, Forgiveness. Out of that experience we can hear our mission, see our path and find the courage to walk it. Out of that experience we can change the world.
But changing the world is not why I’m here. I’m here to open myself to God. It seems to me that people would rather hear about changing the injustices in the world. You can get grant money for that. But I’m saying that the most important part of life is not fighting injustice but opening your heart to more of God. Where or how God sends me is the Spirit’s business. I’m an employee of the Spirit. I’m not CEO or even upper management in the world. Seek the kingdom of God first. And then the world will be changed.
Seek the kingdom of God first. That’s it. I’ve heard it a zillion times. I’m beginning to actually ‘hear’ what Jesus, and all the other spiritual leaders, have been saying. God first. Go deeper into God.
This Mystic in Motion wants to deep dive.
Love and prayers
Mystic in Motion
Companion on the Way with Contemplative Fire
Contemplative Fire Canada, Founder
Shalem Society Member with Shalem Institute for Contemplative Living