From a Lenten reflection it’s grown into a state of awareness. I recognize that I’m living in a land where I don’t know what’s going to happen.
When we move, who will be our neighbours? Will we make a friend or two or three? Who will they be? What will their stories have been? Who will know my story? Where will I get my hair cut? Who will be our doctor, dentist, chiropractor, let alone run our favourite local coffee shop? What activities will we be engaged in? How are we going to decide what comes with us and what stays behind? Who is going to buy our home? I simply don’t know.
I picture myself standing in the shallows of a river. I’m in ‘The Land of I Don’t Know’. I like acknowledging that I’m living there right now. Sure, in reality we ALL live there everyday, but usually we have enough scheduled in our life that the uncertainty is muffled. It doesn’t shout at us the way it is shouting at me these days! My calendar is pretty empty!
As I stand in the shallows of unknowing, I see flat stones that I can step on to make my way through the river. Even, in the midst of uncertainty, there are some things I do know.
Stepping Stone 1: I know God’s presence and live with an awareness of how much I’m loved. Without doing anything, with an empty calendar, I’m still beloved.
Stepping Stone 2: I know that you’re loved too. God’s love is a vast, warm embrace that holds us all together.
Stepping Stone 3: I know I have with me a dear husband who keeps me company in the journey. I have family around me and that there are friends I could call if I need to.
Stepping Stone 4: I know I’m a very privileged person. Of the seven billion or so of us on earth today, I have more materially, emotionally and spiritually than most. There is money in the bank, food in my fridge, a warm bed at night and I’ve just walked on three precious stepping stones.
If we’re honest, don’t we all live in ‘The Land of I Don’t Know’ every day? Oh, we plan and prioritize. We have calendars and make appointments. We’re very busy and purposeful people driving around the city, making sure things get done. But haven’t you had days when ‘life’ happens at you? We really don’t know what’s going to happen next. What are your stepping stones? What keeps you grounded?
And then I smile and enjoy Hafiz:
It used to be
That when I would wake in the morning
I could with confidence say,
‘What am ‘I’ going to
That was before the seed
Now Hafiz is certain:
There are two of us housed
In this body,
Doing the shopping together in the market and
Tickling each other
While fixing the evenings food.
Now when I awake
All the internal instruments play the same music:
‘God, what love-mischief can ‘We’ do
For the world
(The Gift – Poems by Hafiz, translation by Daniel Ladinsky.)
I can’t run away from uncertainty and not knowing, so I’ll jump in with two feet splash around and have some fun. What love-mischief can we do today?!
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Love and prayers
Mystic in Motion
Contemplative Fire, Community Leader Canada
4 thoughts on “Living in the Land of ‘I Don’t Know’”
I liked this very much but have trouble forwarding it to my cousin who is being treated for breast cancer. Could you send it to her as well? email@example.com Thanks, Joan
yes i’ll send it along Joan.
Living in the here/now
Side by side
Preparing us for a future by Visioning
Now that’s a challenge !
Today: Such a very tender thoughts.
great article, I enjoyed reading it!