Lessons from a Hurricane (7)
Tossed and Trapped: The Zombie Virus
Zombies…. I don’t know much about them but…. have you ever seen a computer with The Zombie Virus? It freezes – totally and completely freezes. One day at work my computer had a white screen that wouldn’t budge. I was given a new computer last month and experienced many difficulties with getting it up and running. Finally The Zombie took over my machine! It just stared at me.
When I was in the midst of The Hurricane last fall I often felt like my computer looked when the virus hit. I felt frozen and trapped. I could barely think. I could only focus on a small area of my life. To think about personal relationships, dreams and practicalities of the breadth of my ministry life were often challenging and sometimes elusive to me. I felt constrained, trapped, like there was a rope tying my legs and my hands. Sometimes hours would go by and I was fixated on thinking, or rather feeling, The Hurricane. I couldn’t change the storm, but I was stuck in it, being tossed around like a cow in a tornado, and frozen with a Zombie virus. Tossed and Trapped.
My computer is now fixed. I’m typing happily on it. I’m now free too! I realized I couldn’t tame the chaos. Even with my strong ordering ability I couldn’t alter the changes that were coming into my world. Even with my normal responsiveness to change, I was like everyone else, at times resistant to change.
Tossed and Trapped
Have you had times of feeling tossed and trapped? Times when you were frozen, your productivity was small, and your world shrank? What helped you? Next week more of my of anchors in the storm, but certainly a first step is simply to acknowledge – I’m in trouble! I need some help! Call the God Squad
However your world is today – may you know you are not alone.
Community Leader (Canada) Contemplative Fire